THIS IS DAMN STRESSED!

I've nv been into other countries besides Malaysia and then i am considering to study in England now. It's so far away from home, the whole culture is different. I maybe outcasted like how some ah diong are being out casted in Singapore itself.
I don't know if i can enter with my GPA, i don't know if there is a need for a proficiency test, I don't know if the interview will be successful, I don't know if I have enough money to go there, I don't know if i'll be able to adapt to the culture, I don't know if I am able to concentrate with my studies there while missing my family, friends and boyfriend, I don't know if I'll be made used of by someone else, I don't know if i can communicate with those ang mos. I've never been into a western country and now, once i go there it's 3 years and no turning back.

I asked my mum if i could go there for let's say 2 weeks first to get a feel of what life is like there, the culture and the people as well as the language. I told my mum, what if i can't adapt? what if i can't concentrate on my studies? She replied " IF THAT IS WHAT YOU THINK, YOU MIGHT AS WELL DON'T GO. HOW CAN YOU NOT ADAPT?"

SHE EXPECTS TO THROW ME IN A DAMN FOREIGN COUNTY AND I HAVE TO ADAPT LIKE IT IS NOTHING!

WELL MUM, I AM NOT THAT STRONG!